Author: Lauree (Page 25 of 41)

car accidents really really suck

Tuesday, 25 October 2005, 3:09 / Lauree

I can’t believe all the bullshit I am going through to make sure I get the medical treatment I need.

I have lost faith in car insurance companies completely and have to enter the strange world of lawyers now.

a completely and totally messed up emotional day, which ended up wasted to some degree as a result of all this crap.

I’ve been falling in and out of sleep since 9pm, but have forced myself to stay awake so I can do stupid mundane things like my laundry. and also so I’m not awake in the middle of the night.

I had hoped to be so productive today….

ugh

me and Rebekka at work!

Tuesday, 25 October 2005, 3:08 / Lauree

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Originally uploaded by rev_bri.

Brian shot a few pictures of me, and his daughter, Rebekka in my office at the studio.

We were just surfing around my computer, not really doing anything!

christmas ’76

Saturday, 15 October 2005, 4:24 / Lauree

that’s me, 4 years old Christmas 1976. I am sort of on a scanning spree tonight.

I was thinking about dying my hair red again, and realized that on it’s own, my hair has changed colors over my life so far. I was born a blond, which turned to a blondish brown, aka dirty blond. Bascially, It would be darker in the winter and blonder in the summer.

As I got older, it got a little mousy brown with some red highlights and I have been told that a Great Aunt on the McArdle side of the family did indeed have red hair!

oh, and that “mothering instinct” has ALWAYS been around!

Maybe I’ll go back to this style for my hair. I need to get it cut but not sure how to have it cut…..

decisions…

out of tune

Saturday, 15 October 2005, 3:32 / Lauree

that’s sort of how I feel, maybe that’s why I pulled this particular album from my collection:

Mojave 3-Out of Tune

lately, instead of lying awake pondering whether or not anyone cares about my existence, I’ve started having dreams that include that theme.

I’ll give a quick example, because it’s getting late, and if I don’t go to bed soon I’ll be in some pain as my neck and shoulder are revealing to me in throbs right now.

for instance, last night I had a dream where I was invited at the last minute to a party that I think I would be the first to know about.

at any rate, it sums up the theme lately.

a long lost forgotten faded memory.

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Friday, 7 October 2005, 1:50 / Lauree

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Originally uploaded by Lauree.

once again I find myself awake for seemingly no good reason at the 2am hour. two nights in a row this week and it sucks.

things I’ve done in the 2am hour in the past two days:

killed a big ass spider, which I swear was the one crawling on me in my room a few weeks back.

ate chocolate ice cream with chocolate syrup (never enough with the chocolate!)

watched tv even though there was nothing on, really.

taken pictures of my alarm clock.

thought about trying to sleep.

sing songs in my head over and over, which only keeps me awake more.

I have to work in 6 hours, I hope I go back to sleep. It’s now started to rain and I hope the sound of it will lull me back.