Month: October 2005 (Page 1 of 2)

I’ve been going through physical therapy for the last few weeks. It’s a second round of it as I’m still in pain especially from where the seatbelt restrained me. but since we’ve started working on those exercises and some soft tissue massage, this week I’m not feeling so great.

my left arm and hand are hurting really bad and shift between shooting pain and numbing pain….

this sucks.

it doesn’t help that my house is freezing cold.

to make matters worse, it hurts my back to sit so I’ve resigned myself to muscle relaxers and my electric blanket for the night.

I can’t believe all the bullshit I am going through to make sure I get the medical treatment I need.

I have lost faith in car insurance companies completely and have to enter the strange world of lawyers now.

a completely and totally messed up emotional day, which ended up wasted to some degree as a result of all this crap.

I’ve been falling in and out of sleep since 9pm, but have forced myself to stay awake so I can do stupid mundane things like my laundry. and also so I’m not awake in the middle of the night.

I had hoped to be so productive today….

ugh

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Originally uploaded by rev_bri.

Brian shot a few pictures of me, and his daughter, Rebekka in my office at the studio.

We were just surfing around my computer, not really doing anything!

that’s sort of how I feel, maybe that’s why I pulled this particular album from my collection:

Mojave 3-Out of Tune

lately, instead of lying awake pondering whether or not anyone cares about my existence, I’ve started having dreams that include that theme.

I’ll give a quick example, because it’s getting late, and if I don’t go to bed soon I’ll be in some pain as my neck and shoulder are revealing to me in throbs right now.

for instance, last night I had a dream where I was invited at the last minute to a party that I think I would be the first to know about.

at any rate, it sums up the theme lately.

a long lost forgotten faded memory.